A little curiosity never killed anyone, right? I thought to myself as I watched him from across the room. They say curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back. I guess that just means I need to be satisfied. I smirked as that thought crossed my mind and I ducked my head so if he looked over, he wouldn't see me blushing like an idiot. My own mind would get me into so much trouble one of these days, I was kind of looking forward to it. I just want him so bad!
Keith and I are just friends. It's very frustrating. We met this summer and I've had the largest crush on him since then. His eyes are so intense and the color of a sweet dark chocolate, his smile is always genuine and is very contagious, his voice takes me somewhere far from reality. Everything about him is making me have very inappropriate thoughts.
The fun part is that I know Keith is attracted to me. We flirt a lot but that is about the extent of it. I want so much more though. And today I was going to get it! I looked up and saw that he was done talking to his friend and he was walking towards me. I sucked in my breath and smiled. "Did you eat?" Keith stood in front of me and gestured to the buffet behind me.
"Never mind that. I need to talk to you outside." I started to stand up but he placed a strong hand on my shoulder and pushed me back down into my seat. "Keith, I'll eat later. This is important. Can we please talk for a sec?"
"Alright, sweetie. Let's go." I loved it when he called me sweetie but he calls everyone that so it wasn't anything too special. We made it outside and I took him behind a large tree and started pacing in front of him. "This is very important?" He winked. Damn. He is too hot.
"Shut up. I'm trying to think." I took a deep breath and stood in front of him. "Okay, Keith. We are both attracted to each other. However, this flirting game is for kids. We are both adults here. Out of curiosity I think you need to kiss me right now and see what we feel."
He raised his eyebrow and asked, "Just out of curiosity?" I nodded my head confidently. "Alright then." Without any time to think, he hooked one hand on the back of my neck and pulled me to his lips. And it was perfect. His lips moved very gently but passionately against mine and I felt my knees start to buckle. In response, Keith wrapped his other arm around my waist and pulled me to his chest. I took this as an invitation. I wrapped both my arms around his neck and stood on my tiptoes so I could get even closer to his mouth.
"Valerie? Are you out here?" My friend, Trisha, started calling from the porch. Keith and I broke apart but we were still hidden from sight. "Valerie?" We ignored her and just stared at each other, panting heavily and smiling. I peaked out from behind the tree and saw Trisha had went back inside to the party.
"We should get back inside now." Keith whispered and winked like he always did. I nodded my head and he left me standing there still trying to catch my breath.
This was not going to be the end.
I wasn't wrong. Keith and I would sneak around to have our secret and very intense make-out sessions many times after that day. For a month or longer this went on and no one knew about it. Keith did not seem to be interested in making anything serious out of this. I had gone on a couple dates with other guys but I still could not stop thinking about the way Keith made me feel. He turned me on and made me feel so special. He was caring and always would be there to listen to me and I could trust him with anything. He was an amazing friend and a hell of a kisser. Not to mention he was very talented with his fingers.
However, it felt like we were just having an affair. We did everything in secret. We never went on dates and we never let anyone see us alone together. This had to change.
I sat up in my bed and looked down at my phone playing You're Gonna Go Far Kid by Offspring way too loud in my headphones. The time read 1:07am. There was a good chance that Keith was still awake. I sent him a quick text just saying "hey." I started to fall asleep but I jumped when I heard my phone vibrate about 20 minutes later.
Hey gorgeous. Go to sleep.
I will in a minute. I have a suggestion.
Okay. Let's hear it. But make it quick. I have to wake up early for work tomorrow.
I shiver ran up my spine. I turned off the large fan in my bedroom but that didn't help any. It was all nerves but I had to fight through it.
Out of curiosity, I think we should start dating. Just to see how it goes and what other people think of it too. What do you say?
Well, that could work. Just out of curiosity, right?
Of course. Why else?
His response took a while to come. I was starting to worry that I scared him off and now we wouldn't even be able to stay friends. My breathing was getting really heavy and I was afraid I would start having a panic attack. I was on my last wits end an hour later when his text finally came.
You get out of church at 10 on Sunday. I'm picking you up at 11. Be ready. Good night.
Deal. Good night.
I fell asleep with the largest smile on my face and butterflies in my stomach. Everything was going perfectly.
"You two are really cute together, ya know?" Marcus, Keith's friend, was telling me one weekend at a party at Keith's house. "I've actually never seen Keith this happy. Ever."
I looked over my shoulder and saw Keith talking to some of his friends that go to his college. Most of them girls but I didn't mind because Keith looked right into my eyes and waved at me in front of everyone. "Yeah, I guess so." I said causally in reply to Marcus.
"You guys have been together for so long now. Any plans for the future?"
"Future? Oh no! We have only been together for 3 years. No need to think about that right now. Keith and I are just going with the flow, ya know." As I said that, I realized I was okay with that. I had always told myself that I need to know where a relationship is going and I needed to make plans for a future with someone but I felt perfectly happy just being with Keith now. I was in love with him just as the way things were now. I had to tell him that. "I'll be right back, Marc." I walked over to Keith and his friends. The music was very loud and everyone was laughing, talking, and screaming so I wasn't even sure if he would hear me or not. I got very close and whispered in his ear, "Just out of curiosity, I wanted to see how it felt to say this but I love you to the moon and back, Keith." The way he looked into my eyes, told me he heard every word. I smiled and walked over to some of my other friends.
On our drive back to his place, I fell asleep on the passenger seat while Keith drove with one hand and used his other hand to caress my thigh. I'm not sure if I was dreaming or not but I thought at some point during the drive, at a stop light, Keith had leaned over and whispered in my ear, "I love you, sweetie."
"We need to talk." Keith paused the DVD we were watching and sat up straight on my bed. I got up from my comfortable position of laying my head on his lap.
"This better not take long. I don't like for anyone to interrupt my movie time. You know this, Keith." I was trying to be sassy only because I was terrified of what Keith wanted to talk about.
"Shut up and listen to me." I wanted to laugh but his eyes are always so intense that I stayed quiet. "Don't you think 5 years is a long time to be dating?" I shrugged my shoulders and hugged my knees to my chest but didn't say anything. "Well, it is a long time. Look, out of curiosity, I think we should just get married."
"Really?" My heart felt like it was about to explode and my head started to spin. "You want to get married?"
"Well, it would make sense. We wouldn't have to keep traveling back and forth between your place and mine. Plus, I'm curious to see what kind of married couple we would look like." He winked and smiled at me and I almost died. "What do you say?"
I smiled and climbed onto his lap, straddling him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him in a way that he could feel just how fast my heart was beating in my chest. He was always the aggressive one so he wrapped a hand around my hair and pulled back slightly and wrapped his other arm around my waist and before I knew it he somehow had me on my back and he was on top of me. I broke the kiss but only for a second. Just enough time for me to give him my answer. "Yes."